I stayed on track until I got high the second time with a house full of foods.. and my gym work out was plain l-a-z-y. I only did an hour of cardio on the elliptical and then lifted 1/2 of my machines I usually do. I am getting distracted.. I have to stay on course. Tomorrow is a new day and although it is the festival I can restrain myself. I have to find the control to do it. I want to be skinny..so I need to work for it.
415 Calories Burned
*not counting the chips,pretzels,chocolate milk and everything else I stuffed in my face but I would probably give that about 200-300 calories.
So I probably ATE around my 1200 calorie goal and burned probably about 450 calories.. 1200-450=750.. not to terrible..could have been worse. Tomorrow today will be on my mind so maybe I will not be tempted to eat as bad and drink a lot of water/tea. I did manage to not eat a lot of pizza today which we got pizza from my FAV place.. so I displayed self control..ate a small small piece (not to deprive myself and binge on it later) and drank tea and ate yogurt.. OKAY so tomorrow I should go to the gym twice.. there is probably a cold change in hell with that happening because I have a lot of cleaning to do.
I ate sort of shitty but I was still under calorie… I consumed around 1102 I went on the elliptical for 90 minutes and went 5 miles and burned about 548 plus the lifts I did for my legs.. I was tired and distracted at the gym I should have went the full 2 hours of cardio but I just didn’t feel like running on the treadmill so lazy I know. My weigh in is on Sunday and if I see results after this hard week I know I’m in this for life this weekend is going to be rough with the festival and drinking so if I can step on the scale and be excited for how much I lost I want between 3-4 pounds I’m not getting off this train.
Something clicked today. I am so lost lately and I feel like nothing is stable in my life.. I feel like failure because I still cannot get a job and get turned down for everyone I apply to.. I feel stuck because I am in MP still and I want to be anywhere but here.. I feel unhappy. When I started running today I didn’t want to stop.. so I didn’t and I ran for 2 hours. It feels so good.. even though I am sore now I know it will be worth it.
elliptical-1 hour 427 calories 3.4 miles
elliptical- 1/2 hour 1.9 mi 139 calories
treadmill-1/2 hour 1.9 miles 218 calories
total- 7.2 miles 1141 calories
calorie intake today-1290
plus weight lifting.. arms day.
If everyday can be this good I should see results in no time.. because I’m sick of being fat.